The Impending Collapse of The School System as We Know it

The Impending Collapse of The School System as We Know it

I have worked as a teacher for over 15 years, working with both with children and adults, in private as well as in public schools. As an educational sociologist, I have done consulted and directed group processes with teachers in schools, and in preschools. One of the projects I am busy with at the moment, is leading a new course for teaching assistants at a community college. In this course, I am focusing on giving my students the tools they need, to go into the school system and make a real difference for the students they’ll work with, despite the school system’s terminal state.

See, in the course we often talk about the contradiction of how the education system, more often than not, is preventing and obstructing children’s abilities and opportunities to learn, through its very structures and foundation. Despite this, we actually know a lot about how children best learn today:

  • We know that children need stimulating, nourishing learning environments that spark their creativity and curiosity. 
  • We know that children learn best when their individual learning needs are met. 
  • We know that children learn better when they get to participate actively in the things they are learning, rather than passively receiving information from a teacher. 
  • We know that children learn best when they are self-motivated.
  • We know that reward/punishment based strategies only work short-term, but actually are detrimental long-term.
  • We know that that relationships between students and teachers is essential to foster a supportive learning environment. 
  • We know that the brain cannot take in information for more than 20 minutes at a time. 
  • We know that the most optimal class size is no more than 15 students. 
  • We know that children learn better, when they experience a higher purpose with what they are learning, and that what they learn is real and has meaning, outside the classroom.
  • We know that when children get to move during the day, they can more easily absorb information. 
  • We know that playing music instruments or working on arts is supportive for children to integrate information in science and math.
  • We know that a dull, clinical classroom has a negative effect on students ability to absorb information. 

And yet, in spite of this, we STILL decorate our classrooms clinically, without an ounce of inspiration or color. We STILL shove more than 30 students into a classroom at a time. We STILL teach, using long, boring lectures that students are expected to passively listen to. We STILL use punishment and rewards and call it “motivation.” We STILL remove more and more creative subjects from schools curricular. We STILL use a “one size fits all” model, and we call that “equal opportunity”, despite the fact that more students are falling behind than ever.

More students than ever are suffering from mental illness and stress. Youth suicide rates are through the roof. A country such as South Korea, whose students has the highest test scores in international tests, has also had the highest suicide rates for young adults. And that is a country that many other countries are modeling their education system after.

The gatekeepers of knowledge in the information age

Learning opportunities OUTSIDE of school, are on one hand extremely limited, with parents obsessing over safety and exercising far more control and monitoring of their children, than any past generation has before. At the same time, the advent of the internet has created millions of new opportunities for children and young adults to take learning into their own hands. Many students I have spoken with feels that their real education takes place outside of school. And the only value they get from being IN school, is the social interactions with other students.

Previously, a large part of the power that teachers held over children, was based on teachers being the gatekeepers of knowledge and information. And before them, it was the priests. These days, nearly ALL the information that has ever existed in any language or form, is publicly and freely accessible by anyone with an internet access.

This means that children no longer depend on adults to get educated. They can learn practical skills from YouTube, they can learn languages from language apps. They can start an impromptu business, a record company, or a television station right from the comforts of their teenage bedroom. They know that what they are being taught today might not be relevant in 20 years. They are starting to realize what a hoax college education is. They are starting to realize that they can do it themselves.

And as a result, we are one step away from children realizing that they don’t actually need school as it currently exist. And then what?

The death of the school system

What we are witnessing at the moment, if we were to zoom out to an existential level, is the collapse and extinction of the ancient dinosaur that the school system is, in extreme slow motion. The school system as we know it, is busy dying and it will inevitably die, most likely within our lifetime.
For a lot of people, it seems preposterous (and probably unrealistic) to imagine the school system collapsing. But the kicker in all this, is that nearly ALL of us are products of the exact same school system; the school system that killed our creativity and independent critical thinking when we were kids, that killed our motivation and self-directed curiosity to learn. It is no wonder that we look at the world grimly and with apathy, or that we are feeling like walking zombies half the time, when that’s exactly what we’ve been raised to be.

For a lot of people, it seems preposterous (and probably unrealistic) to imagine the school system collapsing. But the kicker in all this, is that nearly ALL of us are products of the exact same school system; the school system that killed our creativity and independent critical thinking when we were kids, that killed our motivation and self-directed curiosity to learn. It is no wonder that we look at the world grimly and with apathy, or that we are feeling like walking zombies half the time, when that’s exactly what we’ve been raised to be.

New Perspectives and opportunities

If we dare to open up to the part of ourselves that still has the ability to wonder, we will see that there are other ways to facilitate a child’s learning process than what we currently know from traditional schools. There are lots of small, alternative schools being created, and there are even options that takes a child’s learning process entirely out of school, introducing a self-directed process where the child learns directly from being a part of life in a holistic way, also known as an unschooling. There are as many different ways of imagining a child’s optimal learning process, as there are children.

What you can do as a parent

My recommendation to parents reading this, is to take a very long, attentive and affectionate look at your child. Give yourself at least a week, preferably a month, to really observe and reflect on who your child is, how they best learn, at what pace and speed they are, what their interests are, where they need more challenges, where they are too challenged, and ASK yourselves whether the educational setting their are currently in, (or that you are planning to place them in if they are young), is optimal for them as the unique individual that they are. And if you end up realizing that the learning environment that your child is currently in, is not optimal for them to develop their utmost potential, I strongly suggest considering an alternative for your child.

The good news and the ‘bad’ news 

The good news is that it can be an amazing adventure for you as a family, and you may get to see a child that previously was subdued and unmotivated, come to life with a curiosity and creativity you had no idea they possessed. The ‘bad’ news is that you too may have to reconsider your own priorities, and the life that you have decided to live, and you may find that you need to step way out of your comfort zone, to discover what life has to offer beyond what you ever thought was possible this life.

This process may start with our children, but it has to end with us.

[Photo by Miguel Andrade on Unsplash]

Children Systematically Traumatized by being Left in the Arms of Strangers – And What You can Do about it.

Children Systematically Traumatized by being Left in the Arms of Strangers – And What You can Do about it.

Every single day I read stories from mothers who desperately seek support with how to handle he painstaking process of having to leave their child in the care of someone else, because they have to go back to work. Every single day I read about how that process goes horribly wrong, and how happy, cheerful children become withdrawn, aggressive and apathetic. Every single day I see these mothers desperately trying to find a solution, most often without luck, having to do something that everything inside them screams is not right, to leave their child in the arms of strangers.

Here in Scandinavia this usually involves placing the child either at a public preschool/kindergarten which is more common or a private daycare which is less common, when the child is between 7 months – 1.5 years old, with most being somewhere there in between. (In other countries such as the U.S, it is not uncommon to have to leave your child in a daycare 6 weeks after giving birth, so obviously in Scandinavia we have the total ‘Rolls Royce luxury version’ when it comes to childcare. BUT at the same time, it is not optimal, not by a long shot.)

The child most often has to be left in care at time where it is very vulnerable in its development. It has just started discovering its own independence and is slowly but surely started venturing away from its safe base; its home and its parents. In most cases, when the parents have to go back to work, the child is transferred to a totally new environment, and more or less yanked out of their arms, in an extremely rushed process, where their entire life is turned upside down. Unfortunately in many cases, this is required by the preschool staff for them to make their business run effectively. They cannot spend weeks or months integrating a new little one, which is actually what would have been required for many children to integrate in the new environment in a supportive way.

So the child is systematically traumatized – and yes, this is by design.

We have created a system that requires a docile, complacent working force (because it is essentially unnatural and illogical that we have to PAY to live) and so we trade the value of our lives, for mediocre entertainment and unhealthy consumption, and we call that ’life’. The child in many cases learns that it is abandoned by its mother, as it screams and cries for her not to go, and she goes anyways, which pushes it into the arms of the system, and into an inner state of silent misery, suppression and apathy. Please do not be fooled into thinking the preschools and daycare centers exist for the children’s sake because they need to go to such a place to learn what they need to learn in life. I’ve worked in more than 30 preschools, and the stories I could share would make you weep. Nothing in this system is created to support life to grow or flourish. That is why everything is slowly but surely devolving.

This is not to say that ALL children are traumatized by going to daycare or preschool. Many, especially older children, enjoy being around other kids. But for the youngest it can be a very brutal transition. And for many older kids, it is not ideal either.

So – how do we solve it?

This is what I am busy looking at and seeing if I can come up with a prototype for a model that could be implemented at least in a Scandinavian context that would secure mother’s financial situations while still allow them to be around and take care of their children. I simply cannot sit still and keep my mouth shut, when I every day see and hear these mother’s stories about how their hearts are breaking because they have to leave a child into the hands of strangers, strangers who in most cases, have little resources to actually care for that child in an appropriate manner, and therefore are forced to brutally detach the child from its mother. It is simply unacceptable.

The solutions I have found thus far, involve creating either a private daycare or a family cooperative where several mothers (or fathers) can join forces and either care for each others children or hire someone like me to do it. Luckily there are more and more of these places being created around the world (I visited one such amazing place recently in Kalmar which you can see on my Instagram), and more and more mothers and fathers whose inner voice of common sense has become so strong that it can no longer be suppressed or pushed down, and so they work tirelessly to come up with solutions that ensure that their children are given the most optimal care, either by them, or by someone they trust. I for example read about a mother who had come up with a solution where she would go to work at 4 am and then go to sleep with her child at 6 pm. The husband was quite satisfied as it meant he got a quiet evening at home after coming home from work.

I mean, whatever works! And yes, it has to work for the whole family, because a martyred and exhausted mother or father is not an optimal choice either. And there are obviously parents (especially single mothers) who have no choice but to leave their child at some daycare or preschool, or who for various reasons cannot personally care for their child in the home. It is for them, and for all the parents who write and ask for support, and for the children, and for Lora and for our family that I am working to come up with a solution. I don’t know what it is yet, but I know I have to find it, that it must be possible to solve this. Because I simply cannot accept this to continue.

If you do have no choice but to leave your child, please don’t feel guilty or think you are a horrible parent. As I mentioned, this is created by design. There ways to screen daycare or preschool facilities as well so you don’t have to settle for the first one that you get into, and if you find that it is not ok at a later stage, please don’t hesitate to move your child if needed. Some places are really not a place for kids to be. And if you are a parent who simply are not comfortable being at home with your child (which is also not optimal in many ways as I can attest to), or you feel incompetent or stressed because you feel like you’re not a good enough parent to your child, or simply feel it is boring to be around them, please do also not feel guilty. It IS possible to create communities where we can work together and learn together – you are not alone.

And if you do see that leaving your child at a daycare facility is not what is best for your child or for you, please do consider finding a solution to making it happen, even if your family or friends thinks you’re fussy or oversensitive. Dare to stand up for your child, even though everyone around you thinks you’re crazy. You do not have to accept the current way the system works or take if for granted, unless you absolutely have no choice. For many of us, there ARE alternatives, there are other options. There are groups on Facebook for stay at home parents that you can seek advice in and find communities in your local area.  And I am here, even though I may be in a different country and at the other end of an electrical current and data stream. I am here.

If you agree with me and have ideas or suggestions, please do leave a comment. If you have questions you’d like to ask me or get my perspective on, also please do not hesitate to contact me. You can email me at or contact me via messenger on Facebook.



Someone asked me yesterday what it is like to be on maternity leave. I said: “It is a huge paradox.” It is the biggest privilege and the biggest prison in the world. On one hand, I know how fortunate I am to live in a country that offers perhaps the best maternity (and paternity!) leave in the world. In comparison, there are women in other countries who has to go back to work straight after giving birth, handing their children off to distant relatives or strangers to survive. I also live in a country where the tradition is to simply give the woman a bag of money and otherwise leave her to her own vices, totally isolated and cut off from the rest of the world. All over Scandinavia, you see mothers with newborns desperately walk around shopping centers to pass the time; shopping to at least feel some connection with the rest of the world. Or they sit at coffee shops doing their best to look totally perfect and blissfully happy with their designer clothes and designer kids, before going home to an empty apartment to stare into the wall or TV screen until their husbands and boyfriends comes come. And yes, this is totally a first world problem, but it is a problem none the less, because a mother with bird cage syndrome is not necessarily what’s best for a child. And yes, we can organize ourselves into little groups of mothers gathering with their children, and I’ve tried that, and many others have tried that and it is really not that much fun. Children can’t really play together until they’re at least two, so instead they’ll hit each other and roll on each other and steal each others toys. And I’ve gone to open playgroups, only resulting in my child shutting down because there was way too noisy. All in all, I’ve not found any of the traditional offers to pass the time as a new mother appealing.

So – here’s what I am doing instead, and let’s call this the beginning of “A MOTHER’S LIBERATION HANDBOOK”. (I’d like to clarify that when I say liberation, I do not mean liberation from my child, but from the unnatural situation I am placed in being isolated and home alone).


1. Whenever I find myself ‘bored’ during the day at home with my child, or I feel like being with a baby is ‘boring’, I deliberately ‘lower’ myself to her level. (low in this context means ‘humbling/grounding’) I do simple things with her that she enjoys.

These are our go-to things to do:

a) lay in bed and play and goof with each other, look into each others eyes, her moving and contorting her little body preparing to learn how to crawl, sit and eventually walk and stand. I stick my tongue out and do different movements and sounds with my mouth, because imitating these movements and sounds will help her develop the oral strength that is necessary for her to eventually speak.

b) Or we go outside and in the garden (can do it in your neighborhood if you live in an apartment) and slowly, slowly walk around and observe all the details we see. I make sure to observe where Lora’s eyes wonder to, and follow her lead in what interests her the most. Then we stop at trees and touch the bark, or I pick a basil leave and squish it between my fingers and let her smell and taste it.

c) We listen to music and dance. Nothing better to lighten a heavy mood. 🙂

2. I’m starting to plan more ahead to meet and see people that live rather far away, because I have found that it is important for me to be more with people whom I can communicate with on a deeper level and whom, at least to some degree share the principles I am committed to live, especially when it comes to how children are seen and treated.  I’ve realized that if I want to meet and be around people who share similar values, I have to be willing to travel for it, and I am.

3. I have also realized that because maternity leave is a great privilege, I can actually use it (and the time it gifts me) to create even more networks and explore different places, situations and people. So I am actually planning on trying out different sports and hobbies, either where I can bring Lora with me, or eventually that my husband can be with her for a few hours when she’s not as dependent on my milk.

4. I plan on starting to study next spring when Lora is about a year old. I already have a bachelor and a master’s degree but it is invigorating to learn new things and I may want to expand my career into new areas, so what is better than taking up distance studying? (Which will also alleviate our economic situation a bit).

5. In the weekends or when my husband is home, we take roadtrips and find new places to take hikes where we take turn to carry Lora in a carrier or woven baby wrap. This is perhaps my favorite thing to do. As we walk, we talk about our lives and plans for the future.

6. I’m looking into starting a project or getting a job where I can include Lora, but this is very much only at a theoretical level. Another far in the future plan, would be to create a community setup living space, but by then Lora will also be much older. I can say as much that I will not accept that I cannot be mothering at a close and intimate level AND at the same time remain active in society and in my local community. It is simply unacceptable. So I will continue to work to find a solution.

7. I read blogs by other parents, and people in general who can inspire and support me to grow and expand as a mother. I watch videos and have discussions with people online, and I must say that having a supportive online community to share and communicate with is a must when you spend so much time alone – at least if you like I do, have a need to be social on a deeper level. Of course I also produce material myself (like this piece).

If you too are a new mother or a mother (or father) who’s staying at home who can relate to this, do share your tips or hacks of how you’re finding a way to remain active while at the same time committing to caring for your child in the best possible way; with your own two hands. I for one can see how incredibly easy it is to fall into the martyrdom of motherhood (another motherhood label/construct to liberate myself from) where one believes that one must sacrifice everything for one’s child. The opposite of course is the idea that one can have children and continue the exact same life as before, often at the expense of children who are often left in the care of rather random individuals. I am determined to find a balance you hear! And if you would like to join me, or join forces, don’t hesitate to contact me.

[Photo by Ksenia Makagonova on Unsplash]


Why I Will Not Create an EMOTIONAL Bond with my Child – and What I’m Doing Instead. 128

Why I Will Not Create an EMOTIONAL Bond with my Child – and What I’m Doing Instead. 128

From the moment my daughter was born, I knew that I would be walking a process of letting her go. I knew that she is, as the poet Kahlil Gibran says, not my own. She is the daughter of life itself, exactly as I am. I knew that I would have to let go of my own wants, needs and desires in relation to her, so that she can grow up to be the person she needs to be, that she has potential to be, and because I will not accept myself to hold her back or limit her to serve my own self-interest, I’ve been watching out for seeing when I have stepped in to a pattern of ownership or fear towards her.

So, the other day, I had a profound realization about motherhood and my role as a mother. I realized that my ‘role’ or responsibility as a mother is not to create an emotional relationship with my child, or to serve an emotional role in her life. I started realizing this because I could see that I was starting to create such a dynamic within myself, projected towards her, where I, more or less subconsciously wanted her to be emotionally depended on me, to need my love, and where I basically wanted to create an emotional bond between us that would forever tie her to me.

I realized this by asking myself the question in a quantum moment: “What did I need from MY mother? Did I need her to connect with me emotionally, to ensure I wouldn’t feel lonely? To ensure I would feel loved?” And to my surprise I realized that, no, I did not.

When I looked back at my relationship with my mother I realized that, I most of all needed her to support me on a practical level, and to stand as an example of what it means to live effectively in this world and how to form relationships and communicate with others.

When I looked at who I am as a person am in relation to my mother, I realized that I am a sovereign being, meaning that I have my own life, independent from her. If I feel lonely, I sort it out on my own. Even when I felt lonely as a child, she was never able to sort it out for me, or take the emotion from my body and transcend it for me. I realized that I don’t need my mother as an emotional support or ‘anchor’ in my life in any way what so ever, because I am for all intents and purposes alone in this life, as are we all. I need to be that for myself. And so does my daughter.

Looking back, I could see that my mother also did not (at least to a certain degree) create the type of emotional bond to me that many parents do,  simply because she’s not that type of person (for better and for worse). Instead, she always had a great deal of respect for my sovereignty and unique potential, and she has encouraged me become independent and stand on my own two feet (sometimes a little too fast and too soon). As I see it, this is one of the primary reasons why I am not particularly nostalgic or attached to things or people or places or even ideas – which I see as a strength I have. Because it means that I am willing and able to move and change and let go if I need to. It also means that I am able to realize things like these that can be difficult to swallow. Edited to add: It also means that it is important to me to show my daughter physical affection and to respect her boundaries, something that my mother did not do with me.

As I kept diving deeper into this realization, I could see that my daughter is already as a small baby, much more independent and much less in need of me than I’ve given her credit for, exactly because I had this hidden desire for her to be emotionally dependent on me. So I wanted her to be more weak than she is, so that she would keep needing me. Isn’t it incredible? I mean that’s how problematic symbiotic mother/child relationships are developed. And if I you don’t catch it and stop yourself, you’re bound to create that ‘bond’ from what is essentially your own self-interest, of wanting the child to fulfill something in you (through you being something for them) that is really something you are yearning to give to yourself.

But because I have worked on developing myself for a very long time, and because I have walked a process to become self-honest also for a long time, I have enabled myself to ‘catch’ or ‘unveil’ myself in moments of self-dishonesty and self-deception. There are many, many moments still where I don’t (that’s why/how it is a life long process), but this exactly the process of deschooling that is talked about in unschooling contexts, and deprogramming as it is called in the Desteni group.

It is about facing and seeing the parts of ourselves that are the very most secret and shameful and hidden away. That we have created gigantic emotional STOP signs towards in our minds and bodies so that if we were ever to even begin confronting ourselves with the fact that this exists within us, we’d ensure that we DON’T GO THERE – and risk actually being honest with ourselves and our own motives.

See, even though I have realized that my daughter does not need me on an emotional level or for me to bond with her emotionally, it doesn’t mean I am not going to walk a process of creating an intimate and mutually trusting relationship with her. It doesn’t mean I won’t kiss or hug her as much as she’ll let me, or that I won’t rock her and sing her lullabies when she’s sick or tired or support her to stabilize if she’s scared. I already tell her I love her a hundred times a day. But a lot of those things (especially the hugs and kisses) are things that I do for me. I tell her I love her because I enjoy telling her I love her – not because she needs me to feel anything towards her. If I were to die when she was 5 or 10 or 20, she would still live on and create her own life.

The love she needs from me is practical, direct, tangible. The love she needs from me is a DOING, not a FEELING. And more than anything, she actually needs me to love myself, because that is the example I will set for her that she will mirror and to a certain (and big) degree will mold herself after.

So in realizing all of this, I have felt a sense of mourning and sorrow, and within that a reluctance to letting this emotional bond go, because it felt like I was losing her, that she was no longer MINE (which she of course never was). She came through me, but she is not mine. But then I realized that this entire point, this whole time, has been about ME being disconnected from MYSELF, about ME creating a deep and rich relationship with MYSELF, about ME connecting with MYSELF – that is was never about my daughter, or my relationship with her or me as a mother.

So after I had this realization, I have noticed that I have been able to be much more relaxed around my daughter, I have been less scared of her having bad experiences and I have been more myself around her. It reminds me of a decision I made in my twenties when it was clear to me that my mother was never going to be the kind of mother I had wanted her to be as a child. I realized that if I was going to be able to have a relationship with her, I had to accept her for who she was, and accept that she was first and foremost a woman, an individual, and that being my mother was only a part of the entirety of who she was. Back then I also felt a sorrow in letting go of my desire for a particular kind of mother, but with letting that desire go, I also opened myself up to the real human being that my mother is, and I started to see and appreciate HER for who she was. This, I realize, is what I am busy doing with my daughter as well. I am busy getting to know her, and see her for who she is.

And as such, I have peeled off another of those infamous onion layers of deception and unauthenticity from myself, as a mother and as a human being, and I can breathe a little bit more easily as I have released space within me, space that is now occupied by me, my body, my being, and not by an idea about who I am supposed to be in relation to my daughter, that doesn’t only imprison her, to now be defined as my daughter, but that also keeps me trapped in always searching for that deep connection with someone else, all the while, what (or whom) I was looking for, was here all along, with/within ME.